As I count down the days until we go home, I can't help but feel a litte bit sad. This summer has been so amazing, so surreal…but at the same time, I long to be home. I can hardly believe we've lived in Europe 18 weeks! I never would have imagined we would get an opportunity like this…ever! What an experience!
When I think back on this summer, I will remember it as the summer that I traveled all over Europe and had the time of my life; that I had no real responsibilities outside of work; that I felt like I was living someone else's life, seeing and doing things I'll probably never get a chance to do again; that I spent every penny I earned on just enjoying life here; that I gained a new sense of independence and self-confidence…
...but also, this is the summer that I put my real life on hold; that nothing was normal; that I missed out on my first summer in my new house; that I missed my aunt's funeral and my brother's wedding; that I didn't get to see my grandma in her last days; that I wasn't there for my family in their grief and in their joy; that I've missed out on all the planning and events of my best friend's wedding.
I've taken advantage of every opportunity; but in another sense, I've missed out on so much. I guess all I should do now is remember the good, be thankful for getting this opportunity of a lifetime, and celebrate the moment I step off that plane in Louisville!!
we're excited to see you all soon. i guess we all feel like when we're learning important lessons we miss out on experiencing the things we already know how to do. life seems to slow down while we're learning, but a lesson learned opens up so much more opportunity. you may have missed out on special time with family, but I bet you'll be bringing a lot more to your family and friends with your new-found independence.
ReplyDeleteYou were sort of there at Wes and Leslie's wedding- and I have the whole thing on video on my camera if you want to watch it again :-)
ReplyDeleteI know what you're saying. You have mixed emotions of regret and sadness, yet you had the most amazing summer of your life. Don't feel guilty for that. Life goes on. And you are stronger for having experienced all these things, both sad and happy.